Feeling blessed in spite of my circumstances

For as long as I can remember ,I have put myself last . I was a daughter  then a wife and then a mother and onto being a grandmother ( a young grandmother I might add) .I thought that my kids and the people that I have honored and respected would always be there when I needed them , but life gives us unexpected twists and turns and rips the heart right out of us. I have learned on this journey that God wants us to depend on Him and let go of pain and heartbreak .What this meant for me was giving up the people that I loved the most and learning to let go and let God take control . I feel like I am a completely different person and having to start over and live for God more and He will bring in the right people and remove the wrong ones.I hand tried to let go of the anger, the hurt, the frustration that caused me to fall like a lost soul into a deep depression that I have struggled to fight my way back from. I am seeing light at the end of the tunnel. I am trying to feel again . I am learning to trust God more and people less. I’m alive and hopeful .I am worth  more than I have ever given myself credit for but I was looking for validation from family and that was my biggest mistake. God is all the validation that I need .My life will come back together and this time I will be more joyful, loved, and treated with the respect that I deserve.

Letting go

2015 was without a doubt the hardest year of my life ! I went through so many battles that nobody understood or maybe didn’t want to . I had to let go of a lot of things including relationships with  some of the people that I love the most . I’t was more than emotional pain , it ran deep and was physical and emotional as well. So many people turned their backs on me and GOD was always there to pick me up and keep me going ,even when I had no desire to keep going .GOD sent people with kind words, some with provisions and some to allow me to feel needed , something that I longed for throughout this entire time . Although our battle isn’t over , we have came along way and I have grown in ways that I never would have if I had not been allowed to see the true colors of people that I thought loved me and would never betray me .I am still struggling with some things and it will take time to heal . Being an empath makes it difficult to fake my feelings , not that I want to or need to .I’m never going to allow myself to feel inferior again. I have asked GOD to forgive those who purposely hurt me and I feel satisfied that God will take care of me and give me beauty for ashes . I am blessed today and always .

My life so far

Hello there , my name is Cris and I am a single mom and have always wanted to create my own blog. I have no idea what I’m doing but i’m gonna give it my best shot !!! I have three kids and three grandkids !! I am struggling without a job and no car, so I have plenty of time on my hands to get started on a new project from home .God is my rock and keeps me going and brings me through lifes valleys .I pray for peace in this life and that blessings  follow us and  overwhelmingly fill up every single person on this earth with love and joy ,good health and financial freedom. I hope I can continue this and learn as I go. Much love to all !!! Wish me luck 😉